I love this time of year, so full of hope and the idea of a fresh new start, I love to take this time and reflect on the past year and answer a few reflective prompts!
What is the most important lesson you’ve learned in 2020?
Change is good. Change is scary and hard and difficult but more than all that, change is GOOD.
I left a cozy comfy job, a job I was good at, a job that I had invested time into, a job that I could have stayed at for the rest of my life to commute over an hour, I took a slight pay cut, I lost my seniority, I lost so much when I left but I gained so much more.
It was so scary, the full month between when I put in my notice to when I started at my new job, I was lost, I was anxious, I was terrified. There was a constant knot in my stomach.
It is one of the best decisions I’ve made. It has brought so much peace into my marriage and my family. I had no idea the weight of what I was carrying until the weight was lifted and I created my own happiness and work satisfaction which has bled over into our marriage and our family and our finances.
What did you enjoy the most?
I think the pool. I’m stuck between getting our pool this summer and biking. It really brought us closer as a family – I just love to be outside and kick the boys outside to play on their play set. Anything outdoors we just really enjoyed.
What was the best compliment you received?
Two come to mind: Carver tells me all the time that I’m beautiful and that I’m a cool mom ? and honestly, when it comes to being a mom, his and Gannon’s opinion of my momming skills is the only opinion I really consider.
I also had a former patient that I treated in the ER several times reach out and express her gratitude for my care. It was really sweet.
How did you fail?
I shared too much political bullshit on Facebook. I got sucked into election drama and thinking I was right and my way was the only right way. I think I may have hurt peoples feelings or seemed like my opinion was “right” or more important than theirs. Quite honestly, I’m afraid I damaged real life friendships in the online world. I’m committed to having an open mind and knowing that I don’t always have it right.
What were my most useful resources?
We have a mother daughter team that helps care for Carver and Gannon. The mom helps me with housekeeping every other week and they both take turns watching the boys. They are such a gift and a blessing in our lives and our family. They are a huge part of what keeps our family in working order – especially when the pandemic hit. And during busy season. They sincerely love Carver and Gannon and we are SO SO thankful for them.
Describe your year in three words:
Growth. Bravery. Unprecedented.
(Ha – I know people hate that word unprecedented now but like, it really fits 2020)
What are you letting go of in 2020?
SELF LOATHING. ANY voice in my head that is negative or tells me I’m fat, unworthy, I’m not good enough – that is no longer a part of my narrative in 2021.